Friday, July 31, 2009

:: aktiviti puspanita?! jangan tak caya.. ::

friday has come.

i always heart friday.

normally kalau hari jumaat nih, aku ngan member² opis akan start pk, "mana nak pegi ek?"

tapi ari nih, i decided to stay in. sebabnya, meneruskan kegigihan menggantikan puasa. harus cepat² ganti, sebab dah nak masuk ramadhan dah nih.

apart of that, i attended a small workshop today. by puspanita. *hamek!

teka la workshop apa i attend..

cepat la teka..

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hehe.. workshop MAKEUP! fuiyooo! pheewit!

ye, yang mengenali diri ini, akan tahu, mukaku ini boleh kata 'virgin'. ditambah pula dengan insiden² selalu lambat pegi opis.. plus sudah beranak pinak.. plus TAK RETI.. plus telah bertemu dengan moisturizer idaman hati.. sangat jarang la aku nih make up.

jujur cakap, nak pakai eye definer pun tak reti. jangan dicakap eye liner.

sekadar menepek bedak & pakai lipstick, taulah mak. lebih dr tuh, err.. adalah pass sket sana sini.

that's why masa my brother got married, i mintak tolong my officemate cum mak andam aka fie yang cun utk make up moi and my mom. owh, cuz linie turut tumpang sekaki.

well, kelas make up tadi pun, fie yang organize.

ramai yang dah transform. total make over.

me? biasa² saja. sebab.. nama pun tak bermekap bagai. so kelengkapan masih kurang di sana sini. :P

well, tujuan aku pegi workshop tuh, bukan la nak bersolek sangat. tapi lebih untuk berhias buat suami. *ecceh! (ntah bilanya la aku nak mekap ngan askar² kecik tuh kan?)

anyway, aku share jugak la gambar nih.. sebelum dan selepas di transform. :P tapi gambar nih bukan la masuk workshop tadi. gambar nih masa adik aku kawen. gambar moi sebelum dan selepas di make over oleh sifu makeup - fie.


nih level aku mekap.


nih sifu mekap. (fie)


kasi close up sket. amek!

ok. stop now. sebab tau ramai pengsan. wakakakakaka!

t.

Thursday, July 30, 2009

:: afiq demam ::

i'm in the midst of preparing my text speech. but i'm soooo sooo sooooooo lazy, and can't focus to my work.

break sekejap. tanpa nescafe dan biskut. (mode : puasa. insya Allah, esok last day ganti)

kepala otak weng buat speech yang program dia masih blur. adoi. tuh malas nak buat, tapi kena buat judak sebab next week will be out from office sebab ada course, and balik² jek cuma ada 1 hari interface ngan boss to finalize things up. dang!

yesterday i was on emergency leave. sayang afiq demam kuat tetiba, and became very clingy. i am pretty worried, sbb baru perasan he baru jek demam last 3 weeks, and skang demam balik. skang dengan segala mak nenen H1N1, mmg i risau. mintak dijauhkan dari segala bahana penyakit!

yesterday night, when i checked his temp, dah subside. hopefully, afiq dah recover 100%.

okay la all. take care. da!

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

:: my pelangi hati : afiq and adib ::

in 20 days time, my pelangi hati - afiq and adib will hit the number 2. insya Allah. (may Allah always protects and bless them)

:D

am planning a small birthday party, just to look them enjoy and mingle around with other kids.

anyway, here goes their recent vocabulary..

1. mommy go car pis : mommy go car please (i like this one!)
2. lo mes : hello thomas
3. to - li : sorry
4. ti : have to interprete it well. it can be either roti, spaghetti or PERCY (character from thomas the tank engine)
5. kat : chocolate
6. bun : bun
7. cik : nasi
8. lo : milo
9. tutu : susu
10. buat : selimut (i pun pelik..)
11. pok - lif : fork lift
12. ti tak : tip truck
13. ter : can either be excavator, tractor, compactor or cement mixer
14. ken : crane
15. na : kontena
16. bah : bas
17. ler : trailler (can also be fat controller from thomas the tank engine)
18. jem : james (from thomas the tank engine)
19. paish : five
20. one : one (can also be 'wan' their granny)
21. ten : ten
22. washend : wash hand
23. kaud : cloud
24. tim : steam
25. ger : tiger
26. ngun : bangun
27. naik : naik
28. lap : gelap or masuk bawah tunnel

kalau ikut banyak lagi boleh taip, tapi nak citer mende lain pulak.

afiq and adib dah makin besar makin beza perangai.

afiq skang makin cheeky. his favourite would be - tiru gaya orang. kalau kita bersin, nanti dia pun cakap 'aaaa-tum'. kalau kita sendawa, dia pun ikut sendawa. suka sakat adib. kalau adib tengah layan main train, tetiba kang dia letak kaki dia atas track. adib pulak bila train tuh jatuh/stop - nangis.

kalau tgh main train atas track 2 orang, adib will very much focus on the train. how the train moves, etc. and sgt obsess. kalau train slipped off/stop mau dia nangis. afiq on the other will start what my father calls it - what can i fool around with this thing. he'll start to discover all sorts of buttons, gates, etc. that's afiq.

kalau kata u can't find any suis eletrik, suruh la budak afiq nih cari. sangat minat la mende2 yang melibatkan on-off function nih. ada one time, mas my bro's wedding recepetion in melaka, dia nampak aje suis projector yang masa tuh tgh on and play montage my bro's nikah.

kalau bab makan, afiq anda adib are in two different directions totally. kalau masak western, adib layan. kalau masak melayu, afiq layan. but they hit the similarity button jugak at times. paling susah nak percaya - they love bawang goreng to bits. aku pun tak paham kenapa. kalau si afiq, boleh jek nak layan makan nasi putih ngan bawang goreng saja. which makes me marah. sbb no protein/fiber value langsung!

anyway, bebudak tuh kalau jawab soklan pun best gak. kekadang i suka sakat like this:-

mommy : adib ngan afiq anak mommy ke anak daddy?
they'll normally answer : daddy
mommy : adib ngan afiq anak daddy ke anak mommy?
they'll normally answer : mommy

(senang cakap, amek jawapan yang belakang)

mommy : mommy tanya, monkey makan pi-? (expect them to complete the sentence)
them : zza

(adoi! mana la monkey makan pizza)

mommy : sebelum makan baca bismill-?
them : lah
mommy : hir-rahmannirrah-?
them : im

mommy : tiger bunyi camana?
them : aum! (tapi manja gila. tak takut langsung)
mommy : tiger makan da-?
them : ging

mommy : afiq ngan adib en-?
them : tem (hensem)
(adoi.. gene confident turun dr mak pak diorang. haha!)

mommy : kalau mommy marah, mommy kata apa?
them : wah! (bertuah!)
mommy : kalau mommy marah, cakap?
them : to-li (sorry)

tu lerr serba sikit dialog faberet me n them. banyak lagi kalau ikutkan, but my eyes are so sleepy that i'm so lazy to write.

layan gambar!


melawat tiger


kejap jek pegang tangan


aktiviti kat umah.

Friday, July 24, 2009

:: HEAVYWEIGHT lunch ::

had a great lunch today, with fellow 'lunch team members' - the 4A's and a J. ;p

treating ourselves, (lebih kepada duit gaji dah masuk. it's berhoye² time), we head to Chili's MV.

it was a scrumptious lunch, and the service has improved A LOT since my last visit there. the waiter/resses are super friendly. able to give good suggestion and we just simply enjoy our meal (over the juicy gossips as well). two of the A's had the simple Old Timer burger, the other A who shared the same name with me had Chicken Crispers, the sweet J had firecracker fish (i find it LOVELY! akan masuk ke dalam senarai makanan yang boleh diorder selepas ini) while me, i had lamb shoulder. BUT I GULP A BIG GLASS OF LEMONADE, kunun² kasi pecah lemak² yang ku makan. ahaks!

managed to grab some books for my boys as well. alhamdulillah, the early introduction to books has somehow rather bring some good effects on the kids. btw, nak jugak tulis di sini, kalau sesiapa ada jumpa buku 'Nabil dan Puteri Nutrisi', hope you guys can purchase a copy. it's written by a my friend's wife who has a big passion in writing.

will be heading to IKEA afterwards to get some book shelf. we're in need of book shelf since 4 years ago!! i just can't stand the piles of boxes that are full of books and stuffs. (when i say stuffs, i actually don't know how to classify them)

sudah mula berfikir apa hendak dimasak weekend ini. it has been a while since i last think of what to cook, as OH was not around. err, nanti discuss dengan OH la apa mende dia nak makan. and i'll just cook. i just hope that he don't come up with the answer,"please surprise me." mau aku masak maggi jek nanti. :D

btw, i have finished reading 'PS I Love You' by Cecelia Atherns (yeah sudah agak ketinggalan, kerana selama ini saya terlalu obsess dengan Sophie Kinsella) and not forgetting the latest Sophie's collection, 'Twenties Girl'. insya Allah, i'll put up my review for you guys yeah. (unless there're request not putting any sebab akan kill the thrill and adrenaline to read)

okay ye. sekian entry untuk hari ini.

(agak², OH nak ke beli apa² untuk cinta hati dia hari nih?) :P

:: Lelaki dan Wanita ::

found this beautiful article in a blog. have read it before and thought that it would be wonderful to share it with all.

LELAKI

Lelaki bujang kena tanggung dosa sendiri apabila sudah baligh manakala dosa gadis bujang ditanggung oleh bapanya.

Lelaki berkahwin kena tanggung dosa sendiri, dosa isteri, dosa anak perempuan yang belum berkahwin dan dosa anak lelaki yang belum baligh. BERATKAN?
~ hmm.. kalau laki yang mengamalkan poligami, sure lagi beratkan?

Hukum menjelaskan anak lelaki kena bertanggung jawab ke atas ibunya dan sekiranya dia tidak menjalankan tanggung jawabnya maka dosa baginya terutama anak lelaki yang tua, manakala perempuan tidak, perempuan hanya perlu taat kepada suaminya.
Isteri berbuat baik pahala dapat kepadanya kalau buat tak baik dosanya ditanggung oleh suaminya. BERATKAN??

Suami kena bagi nafkah pada isteri, ini wajib tapi isteri tidak. Walaupun begitu isteri boleh membantu. Haram bagi suami bertanya pendapatan isteri lebih-lebih lagi menggunakan pendapatan isteri tanpa izin ini.

Banyak lagi lelaki lebih-lebih lagi yang bergelar suami perlu tanggung. Kalau nak dibayangkan beratnya dosa-dosa yang ditanggungnya seperti gunung dengan semut. Itu sebabnya mengikut kajian nyawa orang perempuan lebih panjang daripada lelaki. Lelaki mati cepat kerana tak larat dengan beratnya dosa-dosa yang ditanggung (ikut kajian laa..) Tetapi orang lelaki ada keistimewaannya yang dianugerah oleh Allah SWT. Ini orang lelaki kena tahu, kalau tak tahu kena jadi perempuan. Begitulah kira-kiranya.

WANITA

Auratnya lebih susah dijaga berbanding lelaki.

Perlu meminta izin dari suaminya apabila mahu keluar rumah tetapi tidak sebaliknya.

Saksinya kurang berbanding lelaki. Menerima pusaka kurang dari lelaki.

Perlu menghadapi kesusahan mengandung dan melahirkan anak.

Wajib taat kepada suaminya tetapi suami tak perlu taat pada isterinya. Talak terletak di tangan suami dan bukan isteri.

Wanita kurang dalam beribadat kerana masalah haid dan nifas yang tak ada pada lelaki. Pernahkah kita lihat sebaliknya??

Benda yang mahal harganya akan dijaga dan dibelai serta disimpan ditempat yang tersorok dan selamat. Sudah pasti intan permata tidak akan dibiar bersepah-sepah bukan? Itulah bandingannya dengan seorang wanita.

Wanita perlu taat kepada suami tetapi lelaki wajib taat kepada ibunya 3 kali lebih utama dari bapanya . Bukankah ibu adalah seorang wanita ?

Wanita menerima pusaka kurang dari lelaki tetapi harta itu menjadi milik peribadinya dan tidak perlu diserahkan kepada suaminya , manakala lelaki menerima pusaka perlu menggunakan hartanya untuk menyara isteri dan anak-anak.

Wanita perlu bersusah payah mengandung dan melahirkan anak, tetapi setiap saat dia didoakan oleh segala haiwan, malaikat dan seluruh makhluk ALLAH di muka bumi ini, dan matinya jika kerana melahirkan adalah syahid kecil. Manakala dosanya diampun ALLAH (dosa kecil).

Di akhirat kelak, seorang lelaki akan dipertanggungjawabkan terhadap 4 wanita :
1. ibunya ,
2. isterinya ,
3.anak perempuannya , dan
4. saudara perempuannya.

Manakala seorang wanita pula, tanggungjawab terhadapnya ditanggung oleh 4 org lelaki ini :
1. suaminya,
2. ayahnya,
3. anak lelakinya dan
4. saudara lelakinya .

Seorang wanita boleh memasuki pintu Syurga melalui mana-mana pintu Syurga yg disukainya cukup dengan 4 syarat sahaja :
1. sembahyang 5 waktu
2. puasa di bulan Ramadhan
3. taat suaminya dan
4. menjaga kehormatannya .

Seorang lelaki perlu pergi berjihad fisabilillah tetapi wanita jika taat akan suaminya serta menunaikan tanggungjawabnya kepada ALLAH akan turut menerima pahala seperti pahala orang pergi berperang fisabilillah tanpa perlu mengangkat senjata.
MasyaALLAH...sayangnya ALLAH pada wanita ....

Seorang wanita adalah pelengkap dan sememangnya istimewa di sisi seorang lelaki , tetapi ingatlah wahai lelaki...

kamu sebenarnya adalah istimewa disisi Allah, maka dengan sebab itu DIA mengangkat kamu menjadi pemimpin...

maka dengan keistimewaan itu, JAGALAH dan HARGAILAH wanita sebaik-baiknya...
supaya kelak masing2 lelaki dan wanita dapat pulang mengadap Allah dalam keadaan istimewa disisiNYA..

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

:: berjersey merah ke old trafford.. eh bukit jalil.. ;) ::

i was on leave yesterday. unplanned.

it all started on sunday. kita salahkan surat khabar. kerana surat khabar mengkhabarkan bahawa perlawanan MU vs Msia akan diadakan semula pada hari isnin, 8.45 pm.

suamiku - hardcore fan MU. agaknya kalau ada exam sejarah MU, confirm dapat 4.0 flat. serius. he missed the saturday match, thanx to working abroad. he arrived in kl late, in fact after the match is over. so, when the oppportunity arises, he definitely gonna wade through, to make sure he is in the stadium, cheering for his team and Msia of course.

it was a brief discussion between him and me in the car, late sunday night after giving a ride to my lil bro in law back to college. he really wanted to bring me there and watch the match with him.

he got the tix on monday, during lunch hour, and there we go. set off to the match. took the lrt, instead of driving and arrived in BJ just in time.

it was a so-so game in my opinion. but according to my friends, the second match is far better than the first.

i didn't enjoy any minute of the first half, thanks to the smokers around me. heylo, 45 minute with a max of 5 mins smoking free, i'm sure i've inhale enough nicotine that night. lepas first half, we got the opportunity to switch place, and alhamdulillah it gets better, both surrounding and match. not much of good tries, perhaps due to players arrangement by both team. MU was with their second best while Msia was with their first team during the first half, and vice versa on the second half. not much of a balance there.

good tries from msia only came in during the last 3-4 mins of the match. sedey. but i applaud Msia's goalkeeper. he has done a beautiful job that night. he didn't crack under pressure and i believe he has good future ahead him. insya Allah.

we left the game just in time before the finishing whistle blew off to ctach the first train back to KL. arrived home at midnight (macam cinderella plak, tapi versi pakai jersey merah. serius aku rasa menyerlah gila malam tuh) gather both afiq and adib at mom's place and head home. makan², mandi² and solat, lepas tuh terus doze off. serius pagi esok tuh mata wa talak boleh buka. terus OH ngan i ber'mesyuwarah' dan mengumumkan hari selasa tuh adalah public hols untuk kami. haha. kunun² nak sambung tido after subuh, but afiq and adib decided that the day has started, dragging both of half awake us out. adeh.

tuesday was spent with dear boys at Kidz-Sport in OU. puas diorang main. it has been a while sinve the last time i brought them to the gym. malam siap.. mengigau². :D

okay la kengkawan. take good care. salam.

Monday, July 20, 2009

:: he's back ::

OH is back for 3 weeks, before he'll fly off again.

had a nice weekend and day out, with the boys of course. hit ikea to survey the very much needed book cabinet. the so called study room really needs some make over. nak post up gambar pun segan hokays!

anyway, brought the boys to LRT station for them to enjoy their first 'train' ride experience. they enjoy it so much. adib dok sebut woo-woo. (bunyi train). haha. and seperti dijangka, tamau turun. :P

will update the food blog later. cooked my so called famous tomyam (self confessed), steamed fish and terung berlada. yummy you! haha.

owh, terlupa plak nak buat dedication..

to my dear OH,

thanx so much for the piece from sophie kinsella. (members - jangan jeles ye, hard cover gitu!) :p bila la nak dpt free time to read that kan?? (i love the feeling of touching new crispy books)

:D

Thursday, July 16, 2009

:: a week of no entry ::

almost a week without an entry, is so not me. ;p blogger tegar la katakan. but i really didn't have anytime to spare to scribble a word or two (well, i did yesterday, but this bl**dy wireless broadband tetiba disconnected - which i tak perasan, and i lost my entry. dang!)

where've i been? u may ask. no where exactly, just have been busy (a little) with work and my boys. alhamdulillah, 3 weeks without OH has been okay (though not A okay all the time. ada gak masa i K.O) adalah sekali sekala adib mengigau panggil daddy. but all in all, their 'rindu-ness' to their daddy are manageable, tho when we skyped, the kidos will start to kiss their daddy on the screen.

work has become a little bit interesting lately, with new challenges being thrown to the team. a group of 4 'beginner modellers' are requested to produce a flood risk map within 6 months time frame - which involves the very much hated area of engineering - hydrology and the complicated math equations of hydraulics. (ngeri pikir sasaran kerja tahun nih. mampukah?) so, jangan ingat keja gomen nih senang yek kawan2. we too have our fair share of hectic schedule and headaches.

anyway, blogging bout work, can never be interesting. don't u think? ngee.

owh, on the other note, i notice it has been at least a month since i last update my so called food blog. yeah, dapur rumah agak kurang berjerebu sebab ketiadaan food tester di rumah aka OH. i only cook simple, extremely simple food, and that is mainly for my kids. me? tak de appetite langsung nak makan, and as a result, i lost quite a significant nos of kg within a period of 5-6 weeks. kinda feel good, but worried at the same time. am i sick or what?

OH will be back in 2 days time, and has requested me to cook MALAY food. and setelah otak ini agak lama berkarat memikirkan menu, saya ingin memohon jasa baik tuan/[uan untuk mengemukakan sebarang cadangan menu yang boleh saya sediakan untuk suami tercinta pada hari sabtu ini. ;p

okay la readers. mata dah ngantuk sbnrnya tapi susah gila nak lelap. anak teruna 2 orang tuh dah selamat tido dr maghrib lagi tadi. boring pulak rasa bila afiq n adib dah tido.

take care all. good nite. muahs!

ps - ayin, i myself is no different from u. hardly spend quality time on sejadah especially subuh. has always been in a rush. have to improve myself on that.

Friday, July 10, 2009

:: book review - Someone Special ::

it took me more than three weeks to finish the piece that OH bought for me.

Someone Special by Sheila O'Flanagan



it is indeed a beautiful composed novel, brewed with anger, frustrations, love and affection. it renders the complexity of a family life, career and love. how people view the same thing differently, that eventually draws everyone far apart.

this piece has made me flipping thru the pages during wee hours, and office too. don't have the time to spare at nights as the two boys need the mommy and mommy needs rest too.

nevertheless, this piece is very refreshing.

highly recommended.


:: shallow! ::

tired. lethargic. exhausted. assimilated with loneliness. excellent recipe to depression.

the feeling of 'giving up' hits the piano keys once in a while. but the blow of saxophone on the other room wakes me up.

does he feel the same?

updating and reading status in fb - am addicted. but there's one simple comment that i take really seriously. what with suggesting your OH looking for a brand new wife when abroad. nak jek aku lempang², terajang² orang nih. ko hengat semua bini suka kena tinggal? ko hengat, senang kena tinggal? sorry, aku tanak lempang. aku tanak terajang. aku nak tripped him off masa tengah jalan depan orang ramai. pastu aku leh gelak guling².

heylo!! lelaki².. is that the only thing in your mind? what a shame. shallow!

Thursday, July 9, 2009

:: Rejab ::

Belum terlewat untuk kongsi ilmu ini yang saya copy paste dr blog seorang hamba Allah hasil carian google.


Sabda Nabi s.a.w.: Hendaklah kamu memuliakan bulan Rejab,nescaya Allah muliakan kamu dengan seribu kemuliaan di hari kiamat.

Sabda Nabi s.a.w.:
Bulan Rejab Bulan Allah, Bulan Sya'aban bulanku & bulan Ramadhan bulan umatku.

Kemuliaan Rejab dengan malam ISRAK MIKRAJnya, Sya'aban dengan malam NISFUnya Ramadhan dengan LAILATUL-QADARnya.

Malam awal Rejab mustajab do'anya.(Dalam Kitab Raudhoh Iman Nawawi)

* Puasa sehari pada bulan Rejab mendapat syurga tertinggi (Firdaus).

* Puasa dua hari dilipatgandakan pahalanya.

* Puasa tiga hari pada bulan Rejab dijadikan parit yang panjang, yang menghalangkan dia keneraka (panjangnya setahun perjalanan).

* Puasa empat hari pada bulan Rejab diafiatkan daripada bala dan daripada penyakit yang besar-besar dan daripada fitnah Dajal di hari kiamat.

* Puasa lima hari pada bulan Rejab, aman daripada azab kubur.

* Puasa enam hari pada bulan Rejab, keluar kubur bercahaya muka.

* Puasa tujuh hari pada bulan Rejab, ditutup daripada tujuh pintu neraka.

* Puasa lapan hari pada bulan Rejab, dibuka baginya lapan pintu syurga.

* Puasa sembilan hari pada bulan Rejab keluar dari kuburnya lalu, MENGUCAP DUA KALIMAH SHAHADAH tidak ditolak dia masuk syurga.

* Puasa 10 hari pada bulan Rejab Allah jadikan baginya hamparan perhentian di Titi Sirotolmustaqim pada tiap-tiap satu batu di hari kiamat.

* Puasa 16 belas hari pada bulan Rejab akan dapat melihat wajah Allah di dalam syurga dan orang yang pertama menziarahi Allah di dalam syurga.

* Puasa 19 belas hari pada bulan Rejab, dibina baginya sebuah mahligai di hadapan mahligai Nabi Allah Ibrahim a.s dan Nabi Allah Adam a.s.

* Puasa 20 hari pada bulan Rejab, diampunkan segala dosanya yang telah lalu. Maka mulailah beramal barang yang tinggi daripada umurnya (pembaharuan umur).

Berkata Saidina Ali:

* Puasa Rejab 13 hari seperti puasa tiga ribu tahun.
* Puasa Rejab 14 hari seperti puasa sepuluh ribu tahun.
* Puasa Rejab 15 hari seperti puasa seratus ribu tahun.

Kelebihan bulan Rejab dari segala bulan seperti kelebihan Qur'an atas segala Qalam.

Puasa sehari pada bulan Rejab seperti puasa empat puluh tahun dan diberi minum air dari Syurga.

Puasa 10 hari pada bulan Rejab dijadikan dua sayap, terbang seperti kilat di atas Titi Sirotalmustaqim di hari kiamat.

Puasa sehari pada bulan Rejab seperti mengerjakan ibadat seumurnya.

Puasa pada awal Rejab, pertengahannya dan akhirnya seperti puasa sebulan pahalanya.

Bulan Rejab Syahrullah (Bulan Allah), diampunkan dosa orang-orang yang meminta ampun dan bertaubat kepada Allah. Puasa Bulan Rejab wajib baginya:

* Diampunkan dosanya yang lalu.
* Dipeliharakan Allah umurnya yang tinggal.
* Terlepas dari dahaga di hari kiamat.

Orang yang lemah dari berpuasa pada bulan Rejab hendaklah bersedekah tiap-tiap hari sekurang-kurangnya sebiji roti. Sasiapa bersedekah pada
bulan Rejab seperti sedekah seribu dinar, dituliskan kepadanya tiap sehelai bulu ruma jasadnya seribu kebajikan, diangkat seribu darjat, dihapus seribu
kejahatan.

Tiap sehari puasanya pada bulan Rejab dan sedekahnya pada bulan Rejab seperti ibadat seribu Haji dan Umrah. Dibina mahligai seribu bilik dan seribu bidadari, lebih cantik daripada atahari seribu kali.

Bulan Rejab bulan Allah. Bersedekah pada bulan Rejab dijauhkan Allah daripada api neraka kerana kemuliaan bulan Rejab, Bulan Allah. Allah jadikan di belakang bukit Jabal Qar bumi, yang putih yang penuh dengan
Malaikat dengan panji-panji berhimpun pada tiap malam Rejab meminta ampun oleh mereka kepada Umat Muhammad.

Allah menjawap: Telah aku ampunkan mereka! Barangsiapa meminta ampun (bersitighfar) kepada Allah pagi dan petang 70 kali atau 100 kali, pada bulan
Rejab di haramkan tubuhnya daripada api neraka.

Sesiapa berpuasa sebulan pada bulan Rejab, Allah berseru kepadanya:
"Telah wajib hakmu atasKu, maka mintalah olehmu kepadaKu. Demi ketinggian Ku dankebesaranKu, tidak Aku tolakkan hajatmu. Engkau adalah jiranKu dibawah `arasyKu, engkau kekasihKu daripada segala makhlukKu,
engkau terlebih mulia atasKu. Sukakanlah kamu, tiada dinding antaraKu dan antarakau".(dari kitabRaudatul Ifkar)

Puasa pada 27 bulan Rejab seperti berpuasa enam puluh bulan pahalanya. Jika disertai dengan sedekah seperti puasa seribu tahun, kerana kebesaran hari ISRAK-MIKRAJ.

Siapa melapangkan kekeruhan, kesusahan, kesempitan orang mukmin pada bulan Rejab dikurniakan Allah kepadanya Mahligai yang besar di dalam syurga Firdaus.

Siapa berpuasa tiga hari pada bulan Rejab dan beribadat pada malamnya(berjaga), seperti dia berpuasa tiga ribu tahun.

Diampunkan baginya 70 dosa-dosa besar tiap-tiap hari, ditunaikan 70 hajat ketika keluar nyawanya daripada jasadnya, 70 hajatnya di dalam kuburnya, 70 hajat ketika terbang suhuf (ketika Qur'an dinaik ketika berlalu di Titi Sirotalmustaqim.

Rejab ertinya ta'zim (kebesaran, keagungan, kemuliaan). (Rahmat, pemurah, kebajikan). Kerana kebesaran, keagungan dan kemuliaan bulan Rejab itu
maka Allah limpahkan rahmatNya, kemurahanNya dan terhadap hamba-hambaNya yang beriman dan beramal solih pada bulan Rejab, dengan berpuasa pada siangnya dan beribadat pada malamnya.

Demikianlah peri keistimewaannya keagungan bulan Rejab itu yang dinamakan dengan BULAN ALLAH.

REJAB bulan menabur benih.
SYA'ABAN bulan menyiram tanaman.
RAMADHAN bulan menuai.

REJAB menyucikan badannya.
SYA'ABAN menyucikan hatinya.
RAMADHAN menyucikan rohnya.

REJAB bulan taubat.
SYA'ABAN bulan muhibbah.
RAMADHAN dilimpahi pahala amalan.

:: tentang hidup ::

woke up early in the morning. glanced at the watch, have ample time for good long hot shower before subuh. the smell of juicy peach bath gel, filled up the small cubicle room. water dropped like rain, showering from head to toe, washing away all the tiredness, leaving the body fresh and awake.

stepped up from the room, put on fresh t's and comfy lazy pants. 'telekung' came next, and there i sat, zikr while waiting for subuh.

azn took place. the voice is so clear and makes the air feel beautiful and peace.

"Allahuakbar". his voice, not trembling, but precise and clear. takbir. jemaah together. beautiful feeling.

every steps are done faithfully and carefully.

"may we be granted with nothing but the best here and thereafter world. amin"

kissed his hand, and a reply of a kiss in forehead. a routine of us, ever since he said, "aku terima nikahnya."

the boys are still asleep. ran down to the kitchen to prepare breakfast. he's off to work in few mins time. boiled the water, toast the bread. pans on stove, eggs turned to fluffy omelette. aroma of coffee filled up the air.

spread the butter and his favourite strawberry conserve. it is a simple breakfast, but prepared with affection and love.

"have a good day at work"

"take good care, you and boys"


of salam, and forehead kiss, he's off to work..

PANG. lempang satu.

mimpi. khayal. impian. dang!

life nowadays kalau jadi macam tuh are too good to be true.

solat subuh dalam keadaan tergesa-gesa. mengejar nikmat dunia. apa kes bekalan mati? takut rasa.

never once in 6 years of marriage, that we could sit together, calmly having breakfast prepared by me together at home before heading off to work. how nice life would be, if that could be a routine? but thinking about it, does SAHM get the chance to do so? or is it the lifestyle that we get ourselves into won't permit this to take place?

syukur, we still got the chance to jemaah when he's still around. seems simple how 5-10 mins of solat jemaah can build the nation. the one way that would crack both hubby and wife's ego, no matter how they quarrel mins before.

never forget the simple 'salam and forehead kiss'.. for that simple, little things that makes the heart grows fonder when aborad.

agaknya la, sampai bila kita nih nak terkejar²kan dunia? sedangkan setiap masa, setiap saat kita diperhati and when the times come, kita akan kena audit?

ps : aku dalam mode rindu. sambil mentarbiyyahkan diri. sambil terkenang my chats with BFF sal. (ye, hoye, hoye jugak, tapi bab agama jangan dipandang enteng!)

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

:: the simple, little things ::

i love to read posts/updates in facebook. especially that relates to the 'rindu2' thing. :P not being jiwang, but rather, cheerishing the simple, little things in life that passed by unnoticed, but will be greatly missed once staying abroad.

malaysia is beautiful, despite the heavy traffic and poor customer services. (life will indeed be more beautiful if we could improve on these).

after staying in sydney for a year and the prospect of staying abroad again has made me become more appreaciative of the little things i have in malaysia, currently. can't deny, staying abroad is a beautiful experiences, but deep down inside, i still miss my childhood town aka taman melawati once i board the plane.

the easily, broad and various choices of breakfast from fragrant nasi lemak, piping hot roti planta, healthy nasi kerabu, halal McD brekkie, owh... it's heaven and definitely be missed bila duduk jauh di perantauan. masa ni la baru nak teringat, nikmatnya minum teh tarik - black tea with condensed milk, pulled high, with lotsa bubbles. bukannya minum english tea ngan fresh milk that to me taste yucky! :P











not to mention, masa hari tgh panas, dapat minum cendol (kat melawati ada satu port yang sangat best!), air kelapa muda, air sirap bandung (kena plak yang ada ais krim soda.. walauweh), cincau, air jagung, ABC, pergh,.. endless..













kalau time petang2 pulak, teringat kat pisang goreng yang garing2 cicah ngan sambal kicap (learned this masa study di johor, and there is a gerai in wangsa maju near NZ yang samal kicap dia not bad at all), cempedak goreng (wan's cempedak), sambil minum nescafe panas borak2. sentimental oo.







belum lagi masuk bila time buah-buah bermaharajalela. bau durian di sana sini, buah manggis melambak-lambak (u still can get manggis in syd for example, but gila mahal. sebiji was like a dollar or so = RM3.00), buah rambutan.. (ayin, jangan nangis baca entry aku. get someone to deep freeze the fruits for you!)







kalau dok mesia, senang gila nak dapat fast food halal. kat hujung jari jek dah bley suruh deliver. teringin nak makan kfc, bleh jek shoot gie bandar melawati. takdenye nak travel sampai nak kat sejam gie campbell town nak makan.. nak makan McD? just a drive away from andaman ukay. nak makan A&W? owh, sudah ada di JJ setiawangsa. best!

apa lagi yang korang miss? kangkung goreng belacan? kailan ikan masin? (aku sure telah berjaya membuat air liur mereka yang terlibat mengalir.. ampun yah)





dan yang paling penting. kat mesia, tak yah risau time solat. kita diallocate waktu dan tempat yang penuh selesa untuk solat. kalau kat oversea, mungkin kat file room, mungkin tepi tangga, etc untuk kita tunaikan rukun islam yang kedua. waktu solat from day to day basis pun tak banyak lari.tak perlu risau nak bawak jaket ke dak, sebab weather pretty much adaptable (not predictable).





senang cakap malaysia nih best. cuma kalau dapat improve 1-2 factor lagi tuh, surely akan buat malaysia lagi best.

hmm.. apa kes aku taip pasal nih hari nih pun aku tatau. the idea just came in.. :D

ps - utk yang jauh di astrakhan, masak nasi goreng kena pakai minyak sayang..

ps no. 2 - gambar adalah diambil dari google search image.

ps no. 3 - this entry is the edited version. ada gambar.

:D

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

:: the selfish me ~ sha ::

i envy linie for being able to say things out freely in her entries. your heartbreaks, your frustration. but i just simply can't be like you, being firm and fairly straight when dashing out the gloomy emotions.

i do dish out my sadness, but only to my OH. marriage has seriously turned me 180degrees. aishah is no more a frank person, but rather, being reserving most, if not all the time. perhaps, over the time, being married to OH, has made me assimilated to his quality of keeping things to myself when being hurt or so. cuz portray me to have great sense of humor, teasing the yonger ones with stupid jokes, but the true thing cuz, i'm a great actress in my own league.

i was being portrayed as somebody who is selfish, macam Machiavelli yang menggunakan orang untuk kepentingan diri sendiri. i was said to have been using my mom to look after my kids when i was 7 months pregnant with arwah amin, when OH was away in ukraine. maidless at that time, i was single handed mananging my kids, and yes, i do ask help from my mom for i think she's the only one who can help me out temporarily. but boy, how wrong that i've been when that was the response that i get after a week or so staying at mom's. i was unsure whether that opinion originated from my mom or not. i have confronted her, asking whether it's true or not, but i never had a straight answer. perhaps, mom is trying to be neutral to everyone. she got so many hearts to look after, not mine alone. and yeah, till now, the comment is still haunting me, and made me to not involve her actively in looking after my kids anymore. i still park my kids at mom's, and will continue to do so, until the kids are big enough and managable with only a helper. am crossing my fingers that the kids won't be considered as bugs and pests to people's life.

after almost a year, i again faced the same situation. but this time around, i was said as a person who loves to barge in when things are executed. i was being said that i never wanted to get involve during the planning stage but rather commented when things dah jadi. i was said, using my kids as reasons for not getting my hand dirty, when the so called real fact was my maid was looking after my kids. people said that, my life should be easier when i have a helper looking after my kids, who does from anything to everything, from makan, to mandi to basuh berak anak, bla bla. i know u're starting to get confuse, but i don't want to understand either, for i just want to detoxify myself from this beautiful comments that simply make my eyes open wider on who i am actually.

yes, i admit that i get my maids to do errands for me. but only ERRANDS. i may not seem to do houseworks as people perceived, but what i give to my kids are affection, love and care, which is pure and true that is not reachable through any other people's heart. errands in my maid's job description would be - wash their poo poo, feed them up with the food that i cook mostly, and give them bath (occasionally, especially during weekend/hols, i'll do it all by myself), and others that need minimal affection. i read to my kids, i put my kids to sleep, i am the walking sleeper mixing up formulas at wee hours for my kids. i definitely don't tell you this, and you will definitely can't see this, for every mother is doing that. it's very unfair for saying life is much easier for i have a maid, and i definitely have some spare time to get involve with things. the true fact for that person to know, my sons don't have any other mother to look after them during the said time that i'm supposed to help with chores, but the house definitely have a bunch of people that can definitely lend a hand to help things out.

it's hard to be me. it's hard because nothing i do will satisfy either A or B. perhaps C as well. and maybe to Z too. i don't tell you what knickers and bras that i wear everyday - a simple way to say i don't tell you what problems that i'm facing daily, that affects my life. i crunched the bits to myself. so please spare the comments till you get the fact.

it's definitely time to move on. i no longer have nights at mom's, i'm residing at my humble home sweet home with my lovely kids, though OH is not around. it's tough, but definitely, 'ada manis yang tersembunyi.' alhamdulillah, life has been smooth. though i'm not well for the past 3-4 days, but afiq and adib behave so well, that makes all the house chores a breeze. i believe i don't bother anyone anymore. i'm happy and contented, and insya Allah if everything falls according to plan, i'll hang my duty coat as a government servant for a while to be with my OH in a far, faraway land, tagging along my kids with me. perhaps, absence will makes the heart grows fonder.

pardon me for my gloomy entry. maaf jika insan yang dimaksudkan terasa dengan entry ini. hidup penuh dugaan. hidup nih macam roda. what goes around comes around. wait till u be in my shoes, and perhaps then you will understand how my life has been so difficult with people like u. u may say that i'm a scared cow for not being able to say things face to face. i am. i'm just a complete shit who doesn't know her place and always have her nose around things. sorry for having to encounter a person like me in your life.

the selfish me,
sha


Friday, July 3, 2009

:: broadband users, is it always that bad?? ::

i signed up to maxis broadband recently, to make it easier for me to log into the net whenever i feel like it. but much to dissapointment, it didn't work out well, especially at nights when i need it the most. (time difference between KL and Russia is 5 hrs, so we skyped at night).

brought the lappie to office together with the modem, just to test the line, and it performs better. was it my place, or was it peak at the moment i logged in? feels like returning it back, but baru terperasan that i need to pay rm200 as handling fee sebab pakai less than a year, more than tral period. dang!

okay la readers.nanti bila free sket i'll tepek the pics from bro's wedding.

take care all. salam.

Thursday, July 2, 2009

:: bila mata mengantuk, aku pun mula merewang ::

bila kepala tengah bosan dan mengantuk.. we need some boost to lift the spirits up. work are at relax mode at the moment (so don't accuse me of blogging at inappropriate hours). so harus minda ini mencari² apakah yang boleh dibuat untuk menyegarkan mata dan minda. lantas, jari jemari begitu laju, menaip www.airasia.com ngahngahngah (don't worry abang, i tengok² saje) ngee!

owh, mindaku sudah agak diracuni apabila melihat tiket yang harganya.. hm.. boleh diworkout.. :D harus di printscreen dan diemail kepada suami terchenta yang berada jauh beribu batu. (i deserve a treat okay.. on call sorang² bukan perkara mudah)

people have different views on flying on low cost airlines. so do i. i don't mind flying airasia. in fact, i've done quite a number of low cost airlines in sydney, and i didn't find any differences in terms of comfort of flying. but i do countercheck with the 'full priced airlines' as at times, they offer a cheaper price than the so called 'low cost airlines'. the only differences i shall say is the meal and entertainment centre. but travelling with twins, i surely don't bother with entertainment, as when they're asleep, it's sleep is more important!! :D the differences in flight price come from (from my observation la ek) is the meal, the airport tax, and services rendered by the staffs. but if we do 'value engineering', when your purposes is to fly from point A to B, at a reasonable cost, others don't matter. aite?

the way we travel - we normally did everything on our own. from tix booking to accomodation to transportation. lebih flexible and more fun. (but we haven't been to left hand drive counrty, so the transportation will definitely change a bit). 6 years of travelling together, we sure learn a lot. there're mistakes, unforeseen circumstances and all that makes us (err, OH actually... a better travel desk officer) insya Allah, all his advises are pretty good, and has been proved true.

we prefer to stay in an apartment/self contained unit (as usually referred in oz) rather than in big posh hotels especially when we travel abroad. reason being - feel more relax and flexible when it comes to cooking and bed arrangement.

tu la serba sikit pasal the way we travel. of course we do dream to travel in luxury, hope oneday we'll be granted the wish. :D

okay la kengkawan. ntah apsal la pulak ari nih termimpi nak blog pasal travel. mungkinkah aku memerlukan percutian lagi? hahahaha. gelak jahat.

* hilang pun mengantuk. yeay!

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

:: roller-coaster emotion ::

alhamdulillah, first night without OH moves pretty smooth and well. both adib and afiq sleep so well. ada sekali jek nangis cari daddy. syukur ya Allah. Kau telah permudahkan urusan rumahtanggaku.

i find my blog a tad boring lately. takde entry yang best². pretty much, i'm affected by roller-coaster emotion at the moment. no 2 lines yet, as far as i'm concerned, it's just that, there're things that take place currently bugging my life.

dah lerr borak pasal mende² tak best. rosak mood kan?

am planning to get a body massage this saturday morning, lepas ziarah kubur arwah amin, insya Allah. OH takde, susah sket nak gie ziarah. kalau OH ada boleh kata every saturday pegi. lepas body massage, rasa cam nak bawak the boys pegi zoo. tgklah kalau sempat dan tak panas. kalau tak, ahad la bawak.

okayla korang. takde mende dah nak update. have a good day. daa!