:: LETIH SANGAT! ::

aku stress sangat hari nih! agagagagagagagagaggagagaga.

letih la kepala mak memikir memacam hal pasal kerja. fenats.

malam tadi the kids didn't sleep well. afiq qoke up at 3.15, followed by adib, asking for milk. lepas siap kasik susu, aidin pulak bangun nak susu. tengah breastfeed aidin, si afiq ngan adib pampers bocor la plak, habis basah baju. uwaaaaa! and i was alone!

i was sleeping at mom's place. kalau kat rumah mak, bilik i kat bawah sekali. baju anak2 semua kat bilik maid, which kat atas sekali. nasib baik la on the way nak amek baju anak tuh, my maid bangun sebab nak tolong kejut i sahur (it was 4.00 am by then). so she helped me out to change the kids, and terus la aku sahur seawal kul 4.00 pagi (selalu i sahur lambat, dah nak dekat subuh baru sahur).

lepas sahur segala, i sekali lagi bfeed aidin, nak kasik tido. it was 4.30am by then. afiq ngan adib pun setelah dipujuk² tido balik. syukur. terjaga kul 5.30, minum air masak, and sambung tido sampai kul 6.30am. terus bangun and get ready to work.

sampai opis ari nih, pagi aku ada meeting. meeting nak discuss pasal unit aku punya keja.

kesimpulannya - I LETIH SANGAT!

:: jiwang karat ::

rasa hilang semangat separuh badan.

oh 2 minggu, cepatla berlalu..

:: permintaan anak² yang meruntun jiwa ::

dah 2 years in row, we didn't get to celebrate father's day with my OH. it has been 2 years in row too, we didn't celebrate my birthday. semua sebab his commitment to work.

he'll be off perhaps tomorrow night. hopefully kids will behave (it has been a while since he last went out for long time).

dalam kepala dah pk macam2. apa nak buat dengan anak2 masa weekend (yep, mereka sudah tahu, weekend adalah hari mereka!)

lupa kan jap la gundah gulana nih.. kita share cerita afiq & adib yang dah mula paham konsep kerja.

:: scene 1 ::

afiq : atok dah beli scambler (scrambler). atok dah ada duit. atok tak payah la gi keje..

:: scene 2 ::

afiq : daddy keja. mommy keje. wan tak payah la keja. wan cuti ek?

(bodek my mother supaya dok umah stay dengan dia)

:: scene 3 ::

mommy : mommy keja esok. mommy dah tak cuti.

adib : mommy tak yah keja.. mommy cuti..

mommy : kenapa adib nak mommy cuti?

adib : mommy main toy dengan adib..

my darlings, i'd do it if i could sayang.....

:: cerita mommy & keletah anak² ::

will be left behind by OH next week. so, welcome my 'slimming package'. (sigh)

today is not the usual friday. normally, i'll be out from office during lunch hour, sbb rehat panjang. tapinya, i takde mood, and i just want some me time.

past few days, i haven't been well. badan sakit², meaning i need massage. akak urut tuh tak dapat datang la pulak, as she's away in pahang. adehhh.

i didn't expect that breasfeeding for working mom could be very challenging, till i become one. wow. time is very tight. i have to squeeze between meetings and works to pump. memang betul la orang kata, kalau nak breastfeed nih, hati mau kuat. tak pe.. setiap titik susu ibu tuh besar pahalanya. insya Allah, aku try la selagi mampu. hopefully, dapatla kasik 2 years cam some of friends. i jealous ok dengar org dapat breasfeed exclusively for 2 years!

i'm supposed to start my swimming session today. tapi memandangkan badan yang baru nak kebah demam, and still adjusting to work, i made up my mind to cancel the plan.

okay la peeps. nih ada sikit cerita pasal my three kids. hopefully, can bring some smile to a stressful day..

:: afiq ::

scene 1 : tengah main celah² rak baju kurung @ carrefour, wangsa maju, masa mommy dia tengah shopping, and suddenly he fell off.

afiq : "MAAFKAN KAMI!" (nyanyi lagu p ramlee sambil sengih²)

confirm mommy tak marah.

scene 2 : dalam kereta, in the morning, on the way to drop him off @ mom's before i head to office. he was throwing a tantrum, nak ikut mommy gi opis.

mommy : cemana afiq nak ikut mommy.. afiq kan belum mandi.

afiq : afiq tak peluh pun!

DRAMA KING SUNGGUH!

:: adib ::

scene 1 : tengah tgk kartun handy manny dalam kereta. suddenly...

adib : nih philippe (sambil tunjuk kat diri sendiri), nih tools (sambil tunjuk kat afiq), tu ketuk (read : hammer, sambil tunjuk kat tok mama, tapi slow gila cakap. agaknya takut kena marah kot)

:D

:: aidin ::

(yea, aidin pun dah ada cerita)

scene 1 : tengah tido sambil hisap jari. suddenly

aidin : uwaaaaaa!

sebabnya dia gi cabut jari dari mulut. takde orang yang bersalah ok aidin....

ps - aidin is off his mitten already, atas nasihat paed. dr kata, kalau tak bukak mitten, he won't know he got hands. so i supposed, it's good for the baby's hand coordination. first day jek cam mengerikan, but after that he can manage his hand. kira boleh aa

:: iklan jap dari opis ::

it has only been three days at work, but i have started feeling lethargic already! i can hardly open my eyes at nights, leaving my two boys - afiq & adib to much dissapointment as mommy can't entertain them as usual.

aidin macam balas dendam kat mommy dia, dah 3 nights in row i didn't get good sleep, and yesterday paling teruk. i think i slept almost throughout the night, sitting sebab aidin just don't want to sleep in his cot/daddy's arm. mengantuk hokay!

keja tak la tension sgt walaupun byk write up nak buat. yang tension satu jek, takde sorang pun yang cakap aku dah kurus! sume kata, "DAH TEMBAM!" mak dah sampai tahap, lantak la kome, janji aku dah fit in jeans pre-pregnancy, much to OH's jealousy. wakakaka. mak pasrah.

okay la korang, nak share video afiq nyanyi, but perhaps later la kot sebab tgh upload kat fb. takut jam lak internet line nih kang. :)

ok pit stop from work is over, am back to....... my endless paper work!

:: first day at work ::

to be back @ work after a long hiatus has always been hard. :I everybody has to adjust.

i left for work pretty early this morning, leaving afiq crying behind. i know he's very attach to me, and i know it's hard for him to see me working again, but mommy has to darling. adib and aidin was asleep when i left home. i made it on time to office. i find the office pretty quiet with the absence of my close colleagues who are on a looooong leave and on attachment.

started my day finding my pc is not working at all. nasib baik ada lappie so masih boleh review paperwork utk tomorow's discussion. blur - that's the state that i'm in.

since i'm breastfeeding aidin, i had to find time to go to answer the nature's call. have to make way, every three hourly to pump milk and store it in the cooler bag. so far dah 10oz of milk. another pumping session, and it should be enough to supply almost 2 days of aidin's feeding, insya Allah.

anyway, just wanna share some of adib's dialogue when he was out with me on our bonding session at jusco. (i try to bring only one of them, to get to know them better, as they are different when they're alone).

mommy : adib, tolong mommy pegang tissue aidin. (i bought numbers of wet tissues refill, and i didn't take the basket)

adib helped me out. and suddenly there was a married couple (i assume, takkan courting couple nak jalan kat babies' section kan?) walking, and adib suddenly say this to me

adib : mommy, aunty tuh shame! dia tak pakai seluar!

nasib baikla anak aku tuh cakap slow jek. i quickly pulled adib away.

morale of the story : anak itu kain putih. kita yang lukiskan dia. it really hits me, in a good way of course

ps - afiq skarang enjoy lagu2 p ramlee, especially lagu aci,aci bukak pintu. lawak gila dengar dia nyanyi

:: 7th anniversary ::

it's our 7th wedding anniversary today. syukur Allah, for letting us to enjoy every single beautiful thing in life together.

Ya Allah, ya Tuhanku,
Kau limpahilah kami kebahagiaan dan kebaikan dunia dan akhirat,
Rahmatilah hidup kami,
berkatilah hidup kami,
temukanlah kami kembali di syurga.

Ya Allah, ya Tuhanku,
Kau jadikanlah kami ibu bapa yang sempurna,
untuk zuriat yan telah Kau amanahkan kepada kami,
bimbinglah kami ya Allah,
dalam membentuk khalifah-khalifahMu di muka bumi ini.

Amin..

Husband dearie,

i may not say this as often as i should,

wo ai ni