:: cerita afiq dan adib ::

:: kisah adib ::

scene 1 : in the car, was driving to office and he tagged along as he had an appointment with the dentist. i hit a pothole and he said, "mommy bawak kereta tak careful!"

erkk.. terdiam..

mommy : sorry adib, mommy tak buat lagi. ;p

scene 2 : we were walking back to the car hand in hand after the dentist appointment.

adib : mommy, mommy beli la keta mecedis (mercedes).

mommy : (gelak besar) adib ingat mommy banyak duit ke nak beli keta mercedes??

:: kisah afiq ::

scene : he was on the phone with his daddy last night. (siap mengiring bercakap dengan daddy dia, and mommy jadi mangsa pegang tepon for a good 15 mins sambil pejam celik pejam celik mata sebab dah mengantuk)

afiq : daddy balik bila?
daddy : (i don't know what he answer.:P)
afiq : nanti kejap lagi daddy balik?
daddy : (i don't know what he answer.:P)
afiq : daddy balik pukul berapa?
daddy : (i don't know what he answer.:P)
afiq : daddy balik pukul catu? (satu)

guess he misses him a lot.

:: cerita dari satu kegagalan ::

tajuk entry cam gempak jek kan? cam suspen jek.. :D

actually, i nak share pengalaman saya yang gagal menyusukan anak masa first baby dan actions taken utk anak yang terkini so that i berjaya breastfeed anak as long as i can. my milestone : 6 months. lepas tuh kita tgk how do we go next, sebab ada satu event maybe akan take place yang memerlukan saya berada jauh dari baby untuk satu tempoh yang lama, minima 1 bulan.

perhaps, tips kat bawah nih boleh la dijadikan panduan oleh kawan-kawan yang sedang mengandung yang berhajat untuk menyusukan anak. saya belajar dari kesilapan, and till now masih lagi belajar utk tambah ebm. so far stok sedia ada cukup untuk aidin selama lebih kurang 20 hari kalau amount of feeding tak berubah.

1. semasa mengandung, amalkanla baca surah al hujurat. saya dapat tips nih dari buku panduan ibu mengandung yang ditulis oleh ustazah siti norbahiyah. doalah supaya diperbanyakkan susu dan biarlah ia mencukupi untuk keperluan anak kita nanti.

2. minum air banyak. VERY IMPORTANT!

3. makan sayur hijau banyak². in my case, kailan works so well. lepas tuh ada maid dari indonesia advise saya makan pucuk manis (sedap kalau buat masak lemak) and bayam (tak berapa jalan la dengan saya)

4. makan harus cukup. lupakanla soal diet buat sementara. hohohohoho. sangat sukar hokay especially bila lepas pantang badan kita masih kembang dan baju2 lama masih belum muat.

5. feed your baby during the first hour after delivery. itu milk booster yang sangat mujarab.

6. atas nasihat seorang rakan, i've started expressing my breastmilk for stocks masa dalam pantang. u won't get much, but the amount bila accumulate ok la. sebabnya u won't know masa keja nanti how your body reacts. in my case, first week kerja, stock susu memang banyak, tapi bila masuk 2-3 minggu agak merudum. partly penat, stress and lots of adjustment need to be made. but i make it a point to perah 3 times a day at work. i used the simple pump - spectra 3. single pump la tapi. kalau ada dual pump lagi bagus rasanya, sebab it can cut short your pumping time. like me, it takes around 10 mins untuk dapat 5ozs. some people boleh dapat sampai 8ozs and some people takes sampai 30 mins/pumping session to get enough milk supply for the baby.

7. hati mau kuat.....

rasanya nih jek kot serba sikit dari saya yang baru nak breastfeed anak. bukanlah seorang yang pro, tapi so far masih boleh fulfill my son's need.

sharing is caring kan?

:: misbehaviour : cause and treatment ::

3 years menjadi mommy, i'm getting better at reading the cause of their misbehaviour. bila asyik tantrum saje, it means, they didn't get enough attention, and that normally happened when my OH is away, sebabnya, mommy tak sempat nak spend quality time with each one of them, especially when aidin is around. (nak buat cemana, aidin is one charming koala bear, yang mmg sensitive dengar sore mommy dia)

so yesterday, i took the chance to bond with one of the twin aka adib, as adib has been a bit rebellious lately. i took him to work, as he got an appointment with the dentist. he was all excited sebab dapat ikut mommy dia pegi opis. (okay 2 jam di opis sudah cukup utk adib menyepahkan tempat mommy. adehh)so he spent half day with me, office - dental appointment. i pun terus amek opportunity buat check up.

lepas check up, dr kata dia kasik mc and asked me to rest at home. syukurrrrrr! i really need it! so after jumpa dentist, i took adib to pasar tani, beli something to eat, balik opis jap settlekan a few thing, and finally head home.

bila sampai rumah, tgk aidin punya badan dah makin byk naik bintik2. he got temperature last saturday, but it subsided in no time. monday evening, bdn dia dah merah² and yesterday evening, the rashes spread out to his face. OH called from turkmen tanya dah hantar gi klinik belum, enough to annoy me. ye la, aku nih sorang, semua benda nak kena buat. keja lagi. kejar nak hantar anak gi appointment. belum masuk cerita mengasuh. tapi pikir balik, mmg patut aku hantar aidin pegi klinik. kalau jadi apa², nanti aku gak yg menyesal.

so after zohor, terus rush pergi klinik. nasib baik dekat dengan rumah mak tuh ada specialist clinic for babies. dr kata aidin maybe viral fever. maybe jugak naik rashes sebab aku makan durian, as aidin full b/f. tapi aku yakin it's viral fever. so she gave me 2 days time period. the rashes should subside. kalau rashes tak subside then kena urgently pergi klinik balik, sebab takut dengue.

anyway, back to adib's story. lepas the quality bonding time, his behaviour is getting much better. i'm soo happy. TAPIIIIIIII afiq pulak buat perangai. and he's looking for 1001 reasons so that he too could follow me to office just like how i did with adib. mmg i ada plan nak bawak afiq pegi check up jugak, (he got sinusitis and lately nampak makin teruk sebab asyik gatal² hidung) but work at office doesn't permit me to do so. i was thinking of bawak afiq sekali dengan aidin in 2 weeks time. macam² la anak aku nih.

okay la people. sampai sini dulu. take care all. bye!

:: stress ::

mak gave me a call just now, informing adib's filling tercabut lagik.

is it only me yang rasa down bila semua benda kena buat sendiri as OH takde?

is it only me yang rasa bengang bila u call ur other half dia tengah nak kuar jalan2 when u're stucked up with neverending housechores?

is it only me yang rasa penat teramat when u have to wake up at least 4 times a night when ur other half is having a good night sleep?

is it only me yang rasa sakit hati when after nos of call attempts and unreplied sms-es, all u get is call u back later and that later is 5 hours later?

huwaaaaa! mak stress nyah oiiiii.

agagagagagagaga.

ya Allah ya Tuhanku,
ikhlaskanlah hati ku dalam membentuk amanah²Mu yang masih kecil,
bekalkanlah aku dengan segala kekuatan dan semangat,
kerana masih ada anak² kecil yang sedang berpaut,
pada diri ini.

zzzzzzz.

:: regrets ::

waking up in the morning and dragging myself to work is something that i really hate in my life. working for the sake of family financial is really biting me off.

i wasn't my usual self yesterday. i was being very hard to my kids. i just simply lose my composure, and simple misbehaviour by the kids really ticked me off. dan hari nih terus menerus diselubungi rasa bersalah. aaaaaaaa. i hate this feeling! i was supposed to entertain them, as weekends are the days that they really look for to spend with me. sorry darlings.

perhaps, sabtu nih i shall take them out, and bring them back to our humble nest, and let them enjoy their time with me.. only me..

again sayang, sorry. especially adib.

:: Happy Father's Day ::

to my OH, who's in far,far away land, "HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!"

and to my abah & papa (in law),

Thank you for everything, and happy father's day!

:: randomness ::

2 days time, father's day will be up. takde plan ank celebrate pun. so perhaps, just a day out with my kids, somewhere fun.

anyway, i'll be having my full body massage today.. weewo! sudah lama ku tunggu². really need to rejuvenate myself, as sekarang nih, asal kul 9.00pm jek mata nih dah macam digam². i wonder how my friend, aju, can do it. with twin boys and a baby a year apart, with no helper, and what more, WORKING.. i just don't know how she did it. hats off aju!

aidin is growing up very well. he has responded to the coos so well. he will start sengih lebar² bila i start to ask him, whether he wants me to sing tepuk amai² for him or not. owh, he's one charming baby, and pretty easy to handle. thank you so much to exclusive breastfeeding!

some may ask, apsal masa twin dulu i didn't do bf. let me share you my piece of story.

afiq and adib came in unexpectedly. at 32 weeks of pregnancy, they decided it should be the day they came out to see the world. i didn't prepare myself at all. i read too little on bf, hence i was not prepared. i didn't get to see my sons till 3rd day of delivery, so they didn't get the chance of the 1st hour of colostrum. i didn't get to stimulate milk production, hence mmg tak cukup despite efforts makan supplement, etc. ralat sangat rasa, especially bila baca & dengar cerita kawan² yang dapat bf their babies exclusively.

so bila aidin came in, dari awal lagi, i dah cakap ngan my husband, i want to bf him. as long as possible. the hospital helps a lot too. they really pegang that bf principles. 1 st hour keluar dari OT, they have wheeled aidin into my room for bf session.

alhamdulillah, to date, aidin cuma minum susu formula sekali sahaja, sebab masa tuh his sugar content was very low, and dr takut dia kena sawan and can caused brain damage to him despite aidin dah minum susu badan at that time. i was ok with the dr's decision, as aidin's life is more important.

tapi....... bf is not as easy peasy as i thought. byk sacrifice yang kita as mothers kena buat. hati kena mau strong. especially when u start working again. guess, this is the rational why 90days paid maternity leave should be given to all mothers!

kay la people. keja melambak nih kat opis, but i just can't focus. yesterday's meeting really eat my mood. but i better get back to what i'm supposed to do. ta!