Monday, August 30, 2010

:: mak bapak ::

baju setinggi gunung everest kat umah dah settle aku gosok just in time before saturday. haha. maka haruslah sabtu dan ahad digunakan untuk berhu.ha dengan anak² kat luar. :D

anyway, hari nih i don't intend to update on life, just nak share my point of view on few things, especially family.

almaklum la, bila kita dah berkahwin nih, keluarga makin berkembang. penglihatan kita makin luas, dan perkenalan dengan tabiat manusia juga semakin mendalam. bila dah kahwin nih, harus kita ingat, family sendiri dan family mertua tiada bezanya. (ingatan untuk diri sendiri juga). apatah lagi, bila kita yang anak perempuan ni. selalunya kita sebolehnya akan mendahulukan ibu kita, baru mertua, sedangkan dalam Islam, ibu sendiri dan ibu mertua tiada bezanya. hormatnya kita pada ibu mertua adalah sama levelnya dengan ibu sendiri. sebenci mana pun kita pada ibu mertua, kena la pandai handle perasaan benci tuh sebaik mungkin (nauzubillah).

tapi hakikat hidup hari ini, ramai anak menantu makin lupa daratan. ibu mertua datang ke rumah, layan pun tidak. nak solat ke apa ke, semua pepandai sendiri la carik tempat. di mata mungkin perkara nampak kecil, tapi jauh di sudut hati ibu mertua yang melahirkan suami kita, apa agaknya rasa di hati kan??

aku ingat lagi, ada satu akak kat opis aku. dia selalu ingatkan kitorang, sebelum buat apa², cuba pikir.. kalau dah tua esok ada menantu, nak ke menantu kita buat kita macam gitu? kata² akak tuh betul² terpahat kat kepala aku (apatah lagi anak aku semuanya lelaki..)

bila fikir balik, sedih menengokkan institusi keluarga yang makin hilang nilai, adab dan budaya melayu dalam kehidupan. di mana agaknya silapnya?

satu nasihat mak yang aku ingat sampai sekarang, "apa along beli kat mak, itu jugak la yang along beli kat mama." dalam erti kata lain, mak tak nak aku membezakan antara mertua dan dirinya sendiri. aku harap menantu² mak pun akan buat yang sama, akan layan mak sebaik mungkin sebab tanpa mak, takkan ada adik² aku kat dunia nih. amin.

ps - bila dah jadi a mother nih, aku lebih appreciate mak. betapa dalamnya kasih mak pada anak² walaupun dia tak tunjuk. cuma aku jek kena belajar control temper, almaklumla, mak bukan makin muda. adakalanya ada gak time yang mencabar kesabaran. semoga aku jadi anak yang makin baik, dan menantu yang menyejukkan hati

nota kaki - sekadar berkongsi buah fikiran.. bukan saje apply pada menantu perempuan, tetapi menantu lelaki juga....

Thursday, August 26, 2010

:: bila dah takde ::

posa dah masuk second gear. tak lama lagi nak raya.

preparation raya, biasa saje. minimal, cukup sekadar menggembirakan hati anak² dan mommy (pastinya) ekekekeke. kuih raya untuk rumah tak beli langsung, sebab tau kuih raya lepas raya takkan laku. so kalau sesapa yang nak datang rumah beraya, insya Allah, ai masak yang fresh² aje. :D

dulu, masa arwah atuk masih hidup, arwah atok rajin sangat masak dodol dengan buat kuih bahulu. kuih bahulu arwah atok terbaeeeeek! crispy at the outer, tapi lembut gitu bila makan. arwah atok penah cakap kat wan (my grandmother), "esok, kalau den dah takdo.. takdo orang nak buek kuih bahulu nih." dan sangat masin mulut arwah atok. we never get to eat freshly baked kuih bahulu from home anymore. sob.. sob.. dodol pun skali skala ada, kalau wan larat nak kacau with her siblings (none of the grandchild tau nak buat). yang still buat till date is lemang & rendang. my favourite rendang would be rendang ayam cili api with pucuk ubi. terangkat!!

bila kenang pasal orang dah takde, i cannot imagine my life without my parents. i don't know how would i live this world if they are not around anymore. yeah, we have our ups and downs moments surely, but no one can take their place kan? rasanya, amal bakti kepada mak bapak terlalu kurang. nak tolong monetarily, they have more than enough. guess, the thing that i should keep on doing, is keep them happy. by any means. buat lawak. surprise birthday party. makan sesama. simple stuff. i takut jugak kalau on the surface my parents seemed happy, but deep down inside, ada benda yang bugging them.

okay la korang. sekadar berkongsi my thoughts on some personal thing. da!


Monday, August 23, 2010

:: from a serabut mind ::

i've not been in the mood of blogging for quite sometime. thanks to the lethargic me and tight schedule. sekadar bloghopping kat beberapa blog wajib baca hari². :D

anyway, ahli keluarga nukelus telah pun bersidang pasal balik raya. tahun nih turn balik kampung my side. so, we'll be heading to n9 first, then baru balik raya dengan in laws. selalunya kalau raya dengan in laws dekat KL jek, this year will be the first raya kitorang akan balik terengganu. erk.. travelling with three lil souljas uols! amek!

since maid ilek, ai pun kena la mempraktikkan segala ilmu systematic domestic management masa raya nanti. mana taknya, dengan 3 boys u can imagine la kan berapa banyak baju mau dibasuh bila balik kl nanti. fuh..

till date, ai masih tak berjaya masak apa² pun for iftar. and in fact, kami belum sekali pun bukak posa kat umah sendiri. alternate umah mak n in laws saje. masak pun sesimple-simplenya untuk sahur.

i notice sejak maidless nih, i got less time to spend with my kids. though housework is managable, tapi anak² didn't get the time they supposed to get from me and OH. makanya, plan utk tak pakai maid rasanya agak sukar untuk dilaksanakan.

okayla people, tuh jek pun update ini hari. mind is too haywired to write nicely and properly. da!

Friday, August 20, 2010

:: bila dah makin bijak ::

scene : dalam kereta. adiq tengah cengeng nak tgk cerita barney but we don't allow him to do so.

adib : berapa kali nak tengok cite (cerita) barney? kan dah tengok banyak kali. CANNOT!

afiq : jangan cakap kat afiq (don't talk to me)

adib : adib tak cakap ngan afiq. adib cakap dengan cermin.

korang nak marah ke korang nak gelak?

ps - anggaplah kesukaran yang dialami sekarang sebagai kifarah dosa yang lalu. moga dikurnia pahala di atas kesabaran mengharung dugaan. amin.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

:: alhamdulillah ::

i'm officially maidless last thursday, and ohhhh it's very challenging! bab jaga anak tuh tak terasa sgt as we're used to handle our kids on our own, but the house chores... adoyaiiiii, lembik mak! :P

anyway, alhamdulillah. thank you readers for your prayers. adib is getting better. baru jek habis his tamilflu medication yesterday, and insya Allah afiq pun habis hari nih. adib was down with influenza A, but syukur it was not h1n1. afiq on the other hand, eventhough negative for influenza A, was given tamilflu medication jugak because he's exposed to adib.

one word to sum up when i went through this experience - NGERI! why ngeri? sebab the viruses spread so fast! temperature naik mendadak within an hour. terus starts vomitting & voila! rapid test confirm it was influenza A. and best part is, none of us is sick at home.

okayla readers, blogging off now. nak solat subuh and starts doing house chores.. sigh.. (macam mampu jek nak tengok no. 4 lepas posa nih. hehe)

ps - baju raya mak belum settle lagi.


Tuesday, August 10, 2010

:: siaran langsung dari wad ::

sedang bersiaran secara langsung dari prince court medical centre. dah 2 nights dah dok sini..

:: the story ::


it was a normal sunday morning, and everybody is excited sebab hari nih nak buat simple birthday bash for afiq & adib. cake semua dah order, tinggal nak masak jek. get the maid to prepare the raw materials, while we brought all kids out to get few other things yang tak cukup.

just before going out, i dok rasa badan adib suam. check his temperature normal. tapi bagi jugakla PCM half dose. then we went out. first destination, tumble tots. ingat nak riki skolah utk kids, as maid is leaving in 2 days time, and i need a way to steam off their energy. skali lalu depan tumble tots tutup. (i ingat bukak)

adib dalam kereta dah macam moyok jek. we decided to drop by at the clinic and get some medicine before we proceed for lunch. kluar dari clinic, (i stayed in the car, bf aidin) OH cakap temperature adib 39. tapi tak tau la exactly berapa sebab dr pakai yang tepek kat kepala tuh.

after clinic beli brg sket for party packs, then terus gi JJ for lunch. sampai kat SR, baru jek nak duduk, si adib muntah. this is the second time dia muntah hari nih. first time masa breakfast. (adib kekadang muntah kalau food is too much in his mouth) tapi masa dia muntah kat SR tuh, i dah panic sebab kaler muntah dia hijau. teringat yang malam tadi dia jatuh kuat and hit his head on the carpet (but it was more than 12 hours)

terus OH decide to send him to hospital. sampai hospital adib dah lembik. and i have three kids with me with only two adults. afiq and aidin was asleep, so OH waited for them in the car while i manage adib's check up.

masuk ER, kena amek darah.. 3 times try baru dapat. but adib is sucha strong willing boy.. he only cried masa the last try, sbb dah sakit sangat kena cucuk banyak kali. they have trouble getting adib's blood sample sbb adib dah dehydrated. darah cepat gila clot by the time sampai lab.

while in ER, dr masukkan suppositary to control his temperature. he felt asleep. dr advise to admit him, but we declined sebab we believed that adib's temperature shoot up because of the jabs.

bawak adib balik rumah, and gave hime a shower. he was ok by then. birthday bash on, with mommy yang tetiba terer gila masak kat dapur. klung klang klung klang, in 15 minutes siap mihun and get the maid to goreng the prawns after i have mixed the batter. adib and afiq wa enjoying themselves so much, and they fall in love with the cake that i ordered.

3.5 hours after getting the suppositary, adib started to vomit again, and this time, it's really bad. lepas maghrib we rushed adib to the hospital, leaving afiq and aidin behind with my mom whom resume the unfinished cleaning at my house after the birthday batch.

this time round, dapat nurse yang agak cekap masukkan IV line pada adib. so one trial settle. lepas tuh terus admit and masuk ward. kena masuk drip. adib's temperature subsided and it went well that night.

this morning, after habis satu bottle drip, nurse bukak drip and let him had his shower. he looks good. makan pun ok, ada appetite walaupun makan benda yang dia tak suka i.e. nasi lemak (adib tekak mat saleh sikit). but tetiba, at around 10-11, he complained of feeling very cold, and i noticed that his hand and feet dah turned blue black. called the nurses in, and check his temp. temperature shoot up sampai 39.2. masuk supp lagi sekali, and dr suruh buat rapid test ti rule out influenza.

starting from that point, we had to monitor him really closely. me n husband takes turn balik rumah. he went home to pick up few things. lepas tuh i pulak balik and bfeed aidin. (aidin tak boleh tido the night before sebab tak dapat mommy's b, siap melalak at 5.00 am sebab mommy takde)

tak lama lepas buat rapid test, it was confirmed that adib was positive for influenza A. dr directed the nurse to conduct another test to determine whether it's h1n1 or not. dr terus letak adib under tamilflu medication, and the ubat tastes YUCKY. lucky we have prepared some yoghurt drinks to kill the taste. result will only be known insya Allah tomorrow evening.

lepas confirm jek influenza A, adib was transferred to isolation room. his temperature keeps on spiking, and dr said it will only be stable after three doses of tamilflu. so skang nih, me and husband kena take turn untuk tido, so that at anytime, akan ada yang sentiasa alert with his condition.

and just after midnight tadi, mak pulak telefon cakap afiq's temperature shoot up sampai 39 deg. abah sent him to hospital. alhamdulillah, after the rapid test, both me and afiq is clear from influenza A. (i terus check sebab dah terasa sakit tekak).

bila dah ajdi macam nih, i and OH terpaksa la split. sorang kena duduk hospital monitor adib, and sorang lagi kena monitor the other two at home. we decided that i'm more needed at home, as aidin perlu dibreastfeed at night, and i can watch over afiq. OH on the other hand will be staying at the hospital to take care of adib.

hopefully, by tomorrow the result will come out and i pray and i pray, that adib is free from h1n1. i've been thinking lately to get the h1n1 vaccination jab, and was about to look for clinics yang dicover by ING for h1n1 vaccination. and after all this high drama, h1n1 vaccination will e on our priority list after adib gets better.

so here goes my 4.38am entry.

ps - note to all, demam adib tak continuous pun, sudden. pagi tuh elok jek main, sihat walafiat. within one hour everything changed. so, to those with kids, take extra care yeah?



Friday, August 6, 2010

:: kids ::

the twin are turning three in 11 days time. time flies fast ey?

we don't plan to make a big celebration, just a mini one, with family members and perhaps few friends. cake ordered (sudah pandai demand nak kek apa!), goodie bags bought, tinggal nak masak and makan² saje.

we agreed on giving them a 'treat' for birthday, aka kasik depa pilih toy apa yang diorang nak as presents.

afiq mintak 'buzz light year yang besarrrr sangat, yang tekan² keluar bunyi' and adib, as usual, takde mende lain, 'thomas'
last 2 days, when i went home after work, tetiba timbul niat nak menyakat si afiq.. here goes the line..

mommy : afiq, tadi, masa mommy dekat office, mommy pegi 'jusco-jusco' (that refers to any mall). mommy carik buzz light year, tapi dah habis...

afiq : (muka dah terkulat². kesian pulak aku tengok)

tiba-tiba..

adib : mommy carik la kat kedai lain.

adoi... ada pulak yang back up!

moral of the story : they are one step ahead of you!

itu le cerita pendek anak² ku..

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

:: please, please, please ::

i never knew that somenone i know so well lost her first baby at 37 weeks of pregnancy before the baby was born.

cerita dan pengalaman kawan i tuh sangat menyentuh perasaan i, sebab i've been in the same boat, 1 year 8 months ago. gosh.. time flies so fast, it has been nearly 2 years since i last bid goodbye to my late baby boy, abdullah amin fahmi. only if i could be beside her, and comfort her.

so i to all my friends out there, who are expecting, please, please, please, take extra care at all time. most importantly, please count your baby kicks, make sure cukup 10 times a day. if you have any doubt and feels that your baby is a little 'quiet' in your tummy that day, get yourself checked, and ASK the doctor to perform ecg scan on you. don't just be satisfied with ULTRASOUND ONLY.

ajal maut ketentuan tuhan. itu benar. but, please do whatever that you can to ensure you and baby is safe and sound at all times.

so dear sis, if you happen to read this entry, just want you to know, that we are the selected ones to go through this. hugs.

Sunday, August 1, 2010

:: loyar buruk ::

'loyar buruk'

:: adib ::
adib : adib nak toy.
us : (pandang adib)
adib : toy.. let.. (toilet)

adehhhhh!

:: afiq ::

scene : dalam kereta, tengah mengamuk sebab tak puas naik LRT.

mommy : macamana afiq nak naik lrt? afiq kan tak de duit. macamana nak bayar?
afiq : afiq takde duit. afiq ada tiket saje.

kena lagik aku!