:: galstone? gastric? liver damage? ::

i'm worried about my health. i had i don't know fifth time perhaps, galstones/gastric attack for the past one month. dah kena buat scope, dr kata mild gastritis saje.

but yesterday attack boleh tahan lama. dari kul 11 pg sampai ke petang. last2 kul 3.30pm i surrender and called OH to pick me up. he sent me to ER @ pcmc. blood test revealed that my liver ada damage sikit, and i need to be referred to specialist (again!) 2 kali jab ubat tahan sakit baru la ok.

besarnya dugaanMu ya Allah. hopefully i'll hear some good news from the dr. just don't tell me i have to remove my liver, as i can't afford to have any surgery within this 2 months period.

ya Allah, sembuhkanlah aku dari segala penyakit.

:: mengarut ::

tetiba rasa cam nak quit job.

tapi tak ready pulak rasa utk tak dapat salary monthly.

pastu, rasa macam masih perlu contribute kepada negara (ecceh!)

erm, tapi kalau ai tetiba berhenti kerja, lepas tuh bukak bisnes jahit menjahit, u all rasa ada tak org nak tempah? (pegang mesin jahit pun 10 tahun sekali.. ehh ke baru sekali seumur hidup, tu pun pasal ada ERT subjek?)

sah aku tengah meraban.

:: contemplating : to privatize or not? ::

rindu anak². rindu afiq. rindu adib. rindu aidin.

mommy malas. mommy tak nak keja. mommy nak duduk rumah. mommy nak balik home sweet home with the kids. mommy nak have good time with kids and daddy of course.

hmm. berat hati nak buat nih, tapi kemungkinan besar blog ini akan diprivatize in short period. still contemplating, but terfikir balik, why am i giving in?? why and why?? i believe i don't do anything wrong by jotting down my points and opinions. kalau rasa tak suka and terasa hati, button close tuh sentiasa terbuka untuk ditekan bagi menamatkan pembacaan kan? because that's what i do. habis² aku ngomel sengsorang depan skrin, tapi tak la sampai menyekat kebebasan masyarakat untuk menulis. (lain la kalau aku tulis tuh very provokatif kan?)

so, just in case i go private, kepada yg ingin continue baca entries dari blog ini, drop by your email address & some intro on yourself dekat comment box. insya Allah, if i go private, you'll be one of my invited readers.

mode - bengang. tapi hak org lain jugak kan untuk mengekspresi apa yang diorang fikir. so aku tak patut bengang. tarik balik. :P

:: a belated raya wish ::

dengan rasminya ai dah jejak no. 4 atas penimbang.. weeewwooooo!

thanks to NO MAID.

serius mengah!

anyway, masih belum terlambat rasanya untuk wish salam aidilfitri kepada semua readers and maaf zahir batin, andai ada sebarang kekhilafan.

life has been hectic, hence tak sempat nak update blog. i'm very occupied with housework at home that i find office work is nothing! hats off to housewives!!!

afiq and adib dah makin lasak. recently dah move satu stage lagi - conteng dinding.. and to make things more interesting, guna marker pen warna merah, PERMANENT! adoiiiii!

aidin pun dah start weaning, though belum hit 6 months. dah start makan cereal @ 5.5 months. ok kot. sebab dia asyik lapar saje, and bf just seemed can't satisfy him.

the very much awaited day is getting nearer. nanti bila dah confirm baru ai announce kat blog. part of me rasa excited, part of me rasa sedih sebab i have to leave the kids behind for a longggggg period. tapi semua advise, tekadkan saja hati. so sekarang tgh pening memikir how on earth can i make sure aidin punya EBM cukup. maybe nak kena try power pumping yang macam mas cakap dalam blog maybe.

okay la people. take good care. da!

:: dah nak raya ::

cepat betul rasanya puasa tahun nih. kejap jek dah masuk hujung ramadhan. banyak yang tak terbuat tahun nih. mengaji kurang, tarawikh ada lubang. no one else to be blamed but myself, sebab tak pandai manage masa. this year round puasa maid takde, so housechores kelam kabut gila sikit.

insya Allah, i mula cuti hari khamis nih. tapi hari rabu before cuti, i've an appointment with dr, kena buat endoscopic. 2nd week puasa ari tuh sakit dada gila² and dr diagnose ada galstones. dr kata just leave it, but dia nak check kot² la ada infection ke apa. buat jek la.

persiapan raya biasa jek. kuih sebutir pun tak beli mahupun buat. sekadar beli sebalang kerepek buat bekal balik tgganu. i'm thinking of taking a day leave nak buat kuih for my kids, tapi sayang cutiiiii sebab ada probability nak kena pakai banyak this november. nak buat kuih cornflake ngan choc chip cookies. sebab itu jek pun yang laku ngan tekak anak² bujang ku itu.

bila dah lama tak berblog nih, hilang touch la nak type an entry. so i'd better stop here sebelum i start peningkan kepala you all dengan ntah apa² punya entry.. but before that, just to share few new vocabs anak² bujang yang diorang dapat from tv & daily chatting.

afiq and adib's latest vocab
owh silly me!
oh dear me!
slow down!
adib shedih (sedih)
peyash (frust)

yang paling best..

alam semulajadi.. (aku pun tatau mana diorang dapat! hahaha. tapi kelakar nengokkan kesungguhan nak cakap alam semulajadi)

:)

:: merapu meraban ::

aidin is 5 months old today. yeay!

one month to weaning. alhamdulillah, masih berjaya breastfeed exclusively tho bulan posa nih agak mencabar la. stok susu menyusut dengan jayanya, sebab aidin minum susu makin banyak tapi mommy's production makin menyusut. moga dipermudahkan-Nya, so that aidin will benefit from this breastfeeding.

kerja kat office makin melambak². ingatkan nak musim raya nih kurang sket keja, so boleh fokus on technical matters solely, tapi rupa²nya lain pulak jadik. adoi. nak buat cemana, harus harung jugak la kan???

bulan puasa pun dah masuk it's final quarter. kpi ramadhan sangat jauh tersasar. wallahualam.

tapi berat badan mak turun banyak! yeay! i believe main reason is kurang tido + housework banyak + maidless. bagus jugak takde maid nih, tapi utk temporary saje la.. sebab bila takde maid, with 3 kids, and housework and work, i seriously dah tak boleh bukak mata by the time malam utk spend quality time with anak². kesian kat mommy bebudak.

okay la peep. nak tunggu pak supir amek kat opis. lambat la pulak si adib settle ngan dentist. selamatla aku harung jam kejap lagi..

takpe drebar ada.. mak leh lelap.. (kalau anak tak kacau)

da!