:: best wedding anniversary gift, ever ::

aku dah lama risau pasal benda nih, dan finally it makes its appearance.

been there, done that. jadi single mom for a month sudah cukup buat aku tinggal 'rangka'. susut badan mendadak and senang sangat nak detect how unhappy i was.

he broke the news just now, leaving me sleepy but unable to sleep. sah dan sahih kena mob to RUSSIA asap. he estimate he'll be leaving on a jetplane this coming july. estimated to work in russia till early next year, on ASSIGNMENT basis.

i hate my job, but i'm starting to love it. i don't think i'll be following for some reason, but i don't know how will i cope. i can be cengeng at times. will i fall into depression mode?

ntah. i haven't done my istikharah yet, whether i should follow or not, but deep down inside, my guts is telling me to stay behind. can my sons especially adib hazim cope? can we bear the loneliness that i've gone through before. yeah, sudah pernah menempuh perkahwinan jarak jauh, and tell ya it ain't easy.

those who depart will definitely the easier party. he/she will only deal with his emotion, but those who are left behind?? kena handle her/himself, the kids' emotion etc.

perhaps the best option is to quit job. and let myself to be free and follow him as he likes. but is that an option? how will mom and dad feels? how will the future treats me?

it's half past 1, and i'm still up and all hazy.

guess this is the best 6th wedding anniversary ever. why apart is the gift?

:: i hate u! ::

entry rasa bersalah dari author. (author la kan, takkan actor plak?)

since giving birth to my late amin, the weight seems to be extremely loyal with me. compared to previous pregnancy, where i find shading weight a breeze, this time round it's killing me softly. sangat sakit hati hokay pabila satu kebaya pun haku tak bley sarung?

so, lately, i've been looking closely to what i eat (kalau look sahaja with no action, tarak guna kan? that's exactly what i'm doing!). have reduced my dinner, and have started to work out (a little bit) in my quest to lose weight.

but, being me, a BFF to food, it's hard for me to resist those sweet treats and cheesy meals. like this afternoon, aku pegi pasar JKR to get my lunch, and i ended up buying carbonara, AGAIN! nak jek aku curse akak nih sebab masak carbonara sedap nak mampus! dan seperti biasa takkan kuhabiskan spaghetti itu walaupun sedap teramat. tapi salah aku jgak la kan, yang pegi beli gak carbonara tuh sapa suruh, sedangkan ada jek dia jual crispy chicken salad!!!!

* selingan - kira kelas kan pasar tani jkr nih sebab ada jual spaghetti, salad semua. idea menarik bukak gerai kat pasar malam nih kalau tetiba meroyan berenti keja kan?

nampak gaya, with what i ate for lunch today, kena la i really watch out what i eat for dinner. jangan mak masak sedap² kat rumah sudah.

sekian edisi bersalah dari saya. aku menchik kamu carbonara!

:: bloggers' block syndrome ::

bloggers' block syndrome.

tatau nak tulis apa. :D

nanti² kaalu idea mai, i hapdet okay?

ps ~ rindu budak kenit 2 orang kat umah.

note to self ~ harus beli doughnut big apple for the boys. kesian ari tuh makan tak puas. :D

:: cooking journey ::

what a weekend!

pretty hectic, full of cooking adventure (for a novice like me), full of fun with dear OH and boys. :D lovely.

the cooking adventure began in the morning, with scones. (nak buat decision masak apa pun payah!) dok pikir, nak makan pancake ke scone? pancake ke scone? last² buat scone. sbb last week baru makan pancake. the boys skarang nih tengah transition from being picky eater to almost normal. so kenala tackle tekak bebudak nih dulu. bancuh scone then bake, except for the boys, i added chopped choc dalam scone so nampak macam tempting sket nak makan, walhal h*d*h jek rupa scone tuh. :D

feel great for my almost 'traditional' food theme turned out succesful. i'm pretty bad when it comes to handling food with santan, but alhamdulillah, it went out well. yeay! tapi sori la nak masak selalu. takut kolestrol. (beringat dari muda, eceh, perasan muda!)for lunch, we had ikan sepat with nenas masak lemak cili api, brocolli & carrot in oyster sauce, fried crab and sambal belacan (courtesy of MIL. i mmg tak pernah dan tak reti buat sambal). MIL buat sangat sedap, especially kalau campur kuinin. mabeles!)

setelah berhempas pulas kat dapur seharian, malam aku malas mogok tak nak masak lagi. rosak jek diet n agak sia² bersukan main badminton di petang hari when we ended up indulging fillet o fish at night with CHIPS! adeh..

other than cooking, we went out shopping, looking for the boys swimming gear. will be heading east this weekend with ILs, attending a 'family day' function. alamatnya, celebrate wedding anniversary ke 6 dalam kereta with ILs la jawabnya. :D

okayla. esok ada course kat kelang. harap² pn malida aka tutor tuh masak lagi pisang goreng dia yang best teramat. ngee!

:: hari berjejak kasih ::

dari petang smalam dok pk, mana destinasi time solat jumaat aku hari nih. ngehngehngeh.

so tadi setelah berhot-chat dengan kuncu-kinci merewang, maka diputus hari nih adalah hari berjejak kasih bersama kak raja (she's gonna cubit me if i call her makcik). nonetheless, she's not qualified to be a makcik at all. look like 30++ punya muka. with her easy going and cheerful attitude, yeah, she's the person whom we sought after for to crack the tense.

anyway, hari nih kepala rasa agak 'stress'. normally kalau pergi kerja, naik DUKE highway kejap jek dah sampai opis. appoximately 24 mins door to door. tapi pagi tadi, apa ke he nyer ntah. dari exit tol ke opis more than 40mins! hampagas. (sah² la aku lambat ari nih kan?)

skali sampai kat depan opis, alamak! ada assembly meh? konpem kena park jauh! ada la 500m jalan (walhal kalau shopping boleh jek berkilo²meter jalan). sabau jek la.

am thinking of buying some books for my boys. sangat suka baca buku sampai naik hanco buku. (read : they love machineries book so much, that i have to buy the same book twice sebab koyak.) tak pe. layankan aje.

okay la all. next week ada poney warehouse sale. kuncu warehouse pun dah ada bertanya soklan maut tadi masa assembly. ada berani mau pigi? (sbb tau damage dia hmm.. mungkin mengerikan..)take care all. bye!

:: puasa ganti ::

internet agak sengal hari nih.

to do list kat ofis - cleared. cuma terajin letak satu extra to do list - REVISE TUTORIAL TRAINING GIS. sebab next week, kena attend second session kat kelang. (jauh tapi best.. ku rindu pisang goreng akak lecturer tuh yang sedap banget!) kalau tak revise nanti tak hengat.

ari nih berjaya bangun sahur after two days in row fail to do so. (banyak lagi oo mau ganti. kata pantang time bulan pose. pastu pose yang tahun sebelum tu pun tak abih ganti. amek!) hopefully diberi kekuatan dan kesabaran untuk melangsaikan hutang² puasa.

sahur pagi tadi simple teramat. i only made some grilled wholemeal bread with cheese and slices of fresh button mushroom, dashed with pepper. tuh mmg resepi original. standard lunch masa zaman student kat ozi dulu. OH teman puasa hari nih. (rasa best kalau ada orang teman puasa.)

dari smalam dah start pkir, apa nak masak this weekend. tanya OH, dia kata 'perhaps, something western.' nanti la riki² apa nak buat. susah² pakcik leggo ngan makcik prego ada jek dalam stock kat umah. :D

kay yea. take care all. bye!

ps - afiq adib slept pretty well last night, after a night of bad mengigau!

:: Jawapan Kreatif di Zaman Dahulu Kala ::

after a morning of urgent work, and an afternoon of editor's work, i'm exhausted. (exxagerating but true.. camana tuh? :P)

start to think of what to cook for my dear boys (i tried my best to ensure that their meals are ready for the next day, so that the helper will only need to reheat and feed them when i'm at work). teramatla malasnya nak masak. rasa²nya masak pasta lagi la gamaknya. :D untuk breakfast tak pening sangat as last weekend dah buat frozen spring rolls. (tu bila rajin, kalau malas? roti la jawabnya)

hari nih, nak share story yang kelakar². yang boleh buat kawan² senyum, tapi hati² tertentu bengkek. (sorry yek.) just take it as a joke kay?

cerita no. 1

buku soklan tanya..
apakah perkataan yang sama erti dengan ajak?

jawapan yang diberi : jom

ngee..

cerita no. 2

buku soklan menunjukkan masalah sains. ada satu papan, laid on a fulkrum. one side ada batu besar, the other side - nothing.

a boy was instructed to step on the empty side to lift the batu up. tapi fail. apa yang patut budak lelaki itu buat?
jawapan yang diberi : mintak tolong kawan

kreatif!

cerita no. 3

subjek bio punya test.

soklan berbunyi : manusia mempunyai 200 juta ____________

jawapan diberi : tulang. (dinasour ke hape nih?)

cerita no. 4

matapelajaran agama

soklan berbunyi : makmum yang lewat masuk ke dalam saf dikenali sebagai __________

jawapan yang diberi dengan penuh konfiden : istiqamah
hehehehe

nasib baik tok kadi tak tanya soklan masa nak nikah kan? sure kena kursus lagi sekali.

cerita no. 4

si abang bertanya kepada si adik : kenapa tumbuhan dikatakan membekalkan makanan, bukannya menggunakan makanan?

adik konfiden jawab : sebab kalau letak nasi kat akar dia, nasi tuh basi. dia tak makan.

tuh jek nak share. nanti kalau ingat i tulis lagi.

sekian. :D