:: a hectic day! ::

it was a very hectic day for me yesterday, that prompted me to take a day off sebab nak uruskan hal anak². 3 medical appointments, 3 different drs, 2 different places. phewwwww.. i just don't know where does my energy come from??

6.30am
woke up, solat subuh and kejut anak². rushed them for a bath and get them ready for dr's appointment. lepas i dah siap, mandikan pulak si aidin, bf him and finally a cuppa of caffein with a slice of bread for me as breakfast. kids cuma sempat minum susu sorang 'sebotol' as breakfast. mommy tak sempat nak masak and maid sgtlah tidak boleh diharap dalam urusan memasak.

8.15am
geared up to hit the road nak pegi pcmc, as appointment pukul 9.15am. kena singgah rumah dulu (i'm staying at mom's place at the moment) sebab kena amek aidin's progress book. dr dah sound last appointment suruh bawak buku. :P

9.10am
managed to brace through the traffic and be on time. afiq's appointment is first followed by aidin. 2 different drs. so mommy macam org frantic lari sana sini selesaikan hal anak. nasib baik mak ikut tolong tunggu the kids.

afiq dari dulu dah kena diagnosed sinusitis. dah about 3 weeks he complained hidung gatal + runny nose in the morning. kesian tgk dia gatal hidung, sampai gosok hidung dekat sofa. OH asked me to postpone the appointment, tunggu dia balik (which might only happen next week). but i tak sanggup la nak tgk si afiq dok suffer in silent and he's the one who begged me to bring him to a dr! dapatla sepakej ubat - nasal spray + anti histamine.

then aidin's appointment is up. aidin pulak is due for his 3 months check up. aidin is now 5.36kg (almost double his weigh already!!) and he is now 58cm in length. aidin is a one happy boy. dok cooing dengan dr and nurses, much to dr's pleasure. masih belum meniarap lagi, so dr asked me to put him on his tummy more often.

11.00am
dah kul 11.00am baru la selesai semua urusan appointment + payment + medication. by this hour, perut dah berkeriuk dah. kids are hungry that we fed them with only biscuits. pegi la cafe hospital dengan harapan nak lunch awal, skali dia kata operation starts at 11.30a.

terus la amek kunci and head elsewhere for lunch. on the way back, singgah wangsa walk mall for early lunch. selesai makan semua, baru la balik rumah.

12.50 noon
we arrived home at almost 10mins before 1.00pm. and i know i have another appointment at 3pm (in TOWN!!!). adib kena jumpa dentist sebab filling yang buat last 2 weeks tercabut. dentist kat situ kasi one month warranty. OH again asked me to postpone that, but sampai bila mau postpone semua benda just to wait for him to come back entah bila.

before pushed off, i breastfeed aidin siap2 and put him to sleep. afiq dah dozed off to lala land, sebab ngantuk sgt. adib on the other hand, kena paksa bangun.

2.15pm
after performing zohor, i made my way to jalan raja laut with adib for his dental's appointment. adib dah complain banyak kali mengantuk. pujuk punya pujuk, i managed to make him stay awake sampai la habis procedure.

4.00pm
we head home finally. by this hour, i was hungry (again!) already. banyak penat ok. banyak guna tenaga! sampai melawati at about 4.30pm. tapi tak terus balik. singgah workshop dulu sebab plat no. dah 2 minggu patah tak repair². sementara tunggu org tuh repair, adib and i had light tea at nearby restaurant and terus tapau for my kids' dinner. mommy dah tak larat nak masak.

5.00pm
sampai rumah, aidin is waiting for mommy already for bf. tapi aidin kena queue. since dia tak nangis lagi, i terus feed adib and afiq with the rice that i've bought. lepas tuh, amek peluang isi my tummy dulu before picking up aidin. bf aidin and later gave him a bath.

6.45pm
it seems sikit jek ekrja yang buat, but it takes a lot of time. by this hour, i haven't perform my asar yet. and i was left with sooo little energy, that i decided i need to just close my eyes sekejap before solat. i was too tired.

lelap sekejap la kunun. sedar2 dah nak dekat pukul 7.15pm. quick shower, solat asar & terus tunggu maghrib.

7.45pm
lepas solat semua, i went upstairs to check on my boys. (rumah my mom terbalik, rooms semua dekat bawah, kitchen + living hall dekat atas). adib dah tido. (dalam hati ok, lega, one down). aidin tgh ngantuk² manja. dukung aidin kejap, tepuk² and he felt asleep. so tinggal afiq saje. amek peluang suruh maid urut belakang sebab rasa strain sgt. mak came to the rescue offer afiq ikut dia gi jejalan tolong distribute durians to my uncle.

8.45pm
i haven't perform my isyak yet, but i decided to sleep first. sangat² memerlukan tido. woke up in between hours to afiq's happy voices balik dari ikut my mother & to aidin's little sound of sucking his thumbs - a sign of dia nak mintak susu (dia jarang nangis mintak susu memalam nowadays. only sucks his thumb sampai berbunyi dengan mata still lelap. tapi jangan mommy tinggalkan dia. automatic mata dia terbukak and nangis. kuat oo magnet!)

12.34 midnight
i don't know why, i selalu terjaga at this time. bangun la ngan mata terpisat². since tahu masih berhutang solat, terus bangun and perform my isyak prayers.

4.30am
alarm dah bunyi. maknanya time untuk sahur. i masih ada a few nos of days to go. aidin tgh bf lagi. so let him do his business first before i finally woke up at 4.45am for sahur.

4.45am
panaskan nasi (ye, saya dah fed up nak suruh maid tolong saya time sahur) and had my meal. punya la tak selera. masa nak sahur, dah siap² angkut aidin naik atas sebab kalau tak i yang kena lari turun naik tangga sebab aidin very sensitif kalau mommy takde kat sebelah. (mom's house 3 storey. dapur atas sekali, and my room bawah sekali)

5.20am
settle makan sahur. si aidin b*rak la pulak. siap muntah susu sket. so kena ganti baju segala. tapi still he can senyum², sengih² kat mommy. sejuk hati.

5.30am
try tidokan aidin balik sambil breastfeed aidin. amek epluang lelap² manja.

6.30am
up and rise. harus siap pegi ke opis.

skarang - teringat kata dr semalam, for the sanity of your family, have some time off for yourself. and i wonder, how am i supposed to do that when you're the only one who run things out.

teringat masa borak with the dr smalam, when i asked her (she's a single mother for many years), how did you do it?? she said, i just do it, BUT i take a weekend off once a month, NOT from work but from the FAMILY.

hmm..

but as kak hani said to me, mothers never quit. i still have to run the race.

ya Allah, give me the strength.

ps - i lost 3.3kgs over 3 weeks.