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sometimes, when people asked me, nih anak no. berapa.. i'd answer 5.
sometimes, when i'm not ready to explain, i'll answer 4.
but it hurt most, when they know it should be 5, and they'll say.. kiranya nak masuk 4 saje la..
i delivered the handsome baby, Abdullah Amin Fahmi 4 years ago - full term, but fresh still birth. He's still my son, though he's not around, and he still add the count to the number of children i have. He didn't come out of no where. I carried him for 38 weeks and 5 days, just as a reminder. A full term baby, with no pre-diagnosed problem. A smooth sailing pregnancy.
So, please spare the sentence "kiranya 4 je la" to yourself.
You will never know and never understand, how hard it was to regain strength after the loss, until you experience it yourself.. not that i pray that you'll experience it one day though. Would very much appreciate if you could offer some doa instead.. "semoga amin menjadi pemberat amal kedua ibu bapanya di akhirat kelak"
Dia masih anak saya, dan anak saya nak masuk 5.
mode : bertakung ayaq mata.. 4 years in memory (Lahir dan kembali pada 11 Disember 2008)