assuming my routine starts at 5.30am, i started my day bf aidin, sambil ambil peluang lelap² manja. my alarm will tick off at 6.00am. lepas susukan aidin, normally i'll just wake up and have my shower. subuh, etc, terus pergi keja. masa tuh dah around 6.50am to 7.00am.
depending on traffic, and how fast i drive, i normally reach office at around 7.30-7.40am. so there goes work. bla bla bla bla. 3 hourly akan express bm, with each session lasted for 10mins. sejak aidin came in, i jarang betul balik lambat. normally 5.05 - 5.10pm, i dah punch out and rush balik, sebab aidin's feeding is at around 6.00pm.
sampai jek rumah, letak beg segala, normally, i'll be greeted by aidin's little cries asking for milk. will breastfeed him, and normally evening feeding takes a bit longer, especially if i puasa that day.
lepas feeding, i'll give hime a bath. and all that normally ends at around 7.00pm. if i fast on that day, akan tunggu maghrib dulu and buka puasa, lepas tuh baru maghrib and terus tunggu isyak. normally, i get to perform my maghrib at 8.00pm, after settling the kids, dan i akan terus tunggu isyak sebab kalau tak isyak dulu, alamatnya pukul 2-3 pagi baru i solat. that's is the ONLY me time that i get at home, beside shower and doing no. 2 of course.
after isyak, i'll gather all three boys to sleep. while breasfeeding aidin, i try to connect and bond with my other two kids. and off we doze to lala land.
bila malam, i'll wake up 5 times on average, (3 times if i'm lucky), mixing milk for the twin (yup, my twin masih bangun malam mintak susu) or the need to change the diapers for aidin as well as the twin. the twin sangat suka bukak pampers while sleeping, and i haven't start potty training them fully.
i know i'm under great pressure. i know i need to have my me time/time off. but with current schedule and so, i can't even find time to eat, that sometime, i just sleep with an empty stomach.
so tell me, am i stressed or am i stressed?
perhaps, i need more desserts and desserts..
7 comments:
aweng boleh imagine... memang sgt stress... nak cari me time pulak, x sampai hati nak tinggal anak...
aweng - those little things are the things that people don't understand, unless they stand in our shoes.
sha, sorry kalau menyibuk, just nak suggest, yang breastfeed part, masa i breastfeed my kids dulu, i pump at a specific time everyday, and not every hourly (boleh jadi gile dibuatnya), say morning u dah bf, one mid-morning at a specific time of course) and one at lunch (usually time ni my susu byk sebab baby punya feeding time), one before balik, say mid afternoon, and bila balik feed lagi. usually tu yg i buatla, and alhamdulillah so far susu cukup. lepas tu sha, minum BANYAK gile air and takleh stress sebab susu tak kuar nanti. i selalu mcm buat bende lain sambil the pump does it's work (surf net, etc). i'm lucky sebab last time ada bilik, so leh pump dlm tu je, sambil mkn, etc.tapi kalau ada bengkel tu memang payah kan? it is just so hard, i know, but hang in there, things will get better when they grow up. enjoy them skrg, nanti dah besar rindu tau. i know i still miss bf my kiddies.. :) Stay strong and all the best
hai sheri. thanks for dropping in. i mmg tak pump hourly, but three hourly. biasanya around 9am, lunch and before balik. i'm trying not to stress myself out, but huwaaaa it's really beyond my horizon!
(u know when it's PJJ, u're alone on everything, it's really biting me off!)
hai sheri. thanks for dropping in. i mmg tak pump hourly, but three hourly. biasanya around 9am, lunch and before balik. i'm trying not to stress myself out, but huwaaaa it's really beyond my horizon!
(u know when it's PJJ, u're alone on everything, it's really biting me off!)
Trust me, YOU CAN DO IT! Stop throwing doubt of your own capability, stop complaining of other's unfulfilled responsibility, stop hoping for this and that. Treat your day as it is, do things one at once and most importantly, be organized.
One day, you can brag about yourself to others, you can inspire others, you can amaze the whole world. And most importantly, you will get back what you give, the children will never forget you even after you are not anymore in this mortal world...
sha..pas bca blog ko ni bru la tau..aku igt aku jer yg x ckup tdo after dpt baby...baby aku tu msa kecik mmg kuat nangis mlm..pas2 nyusu plak aku rsa every 1 hour..diorg x dpt bf coz aku xde susu..pam pun xmo kluar..sbb tu diorg asyik jaga mlm kot coz lpr..tp at first mmg stress sgt2
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